Change

First, I would like to thank you all for all of your supportive and encouraging comments on my last post. You have no idea how much you lifted my spirits–which I believe will be part of my healing. A quick update before moving on, my health hasn’t been great as of recently (even since my last post it’s had its ups and downs) but I am pursuing some things that I am rather hopeful about and I will keep you updated on the journey as things progress (hopefully for the better!)

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 Something is changing.

I’m not sure what it is yet; but I feel it’s time for something new.  Lots of time spent on the couch with Peppermint Tea at my side, Lavender essence in the air, and a heating pad on my chest has allowed me a lot of time to think, and to ponder, and to re-evaluate some things (watching “The True Cost” played a role, too) and I feel as though a transformation is in order.

There are a lot of things in my life that I like. But there are also a lot of things that I like that aren’t in my life. I plan to change this.

Do you ever get that feeling? It’s like someone is tugging at your sleeve incessantly. It makes you restless and maybe a bit anxious? That’s at least how I’ve been feeling.

I’ve been watching so many inspiring people lately–friends, family, acquaintances, celebrities–and rather than allowing myself to want to compete with them (or put them down because I fear I can’t compete) I am opening myself up to being inspired by them. Driven by their drive. Led by their leadership.

I see people having fun and I want to have more fun. I see people doing good work, and I want to do more good work. I see people opening their eyes and being changed, and I want to do the same.

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We cannot control everything; this I have learned. But we can control some things. These “controllable” things are different for different people. Maybe it’s your career/work, your hobbies, your living situation…there are endless possibilities.

I am becoming more aware of the things I cannot control. But at the same time, I am also becoming rapidly aware of the things I can. And when you can control something, that means you can change it (for worse, or for better).

I am choosing to change things for the better. And I hope if you are reading this and you can relate, you will be inspired to do the same as well.

It’s time we stop exhausting ourselves by running around trying to change the things we can’t control, is it not? Because that energy can be used so much more effectively elsewhere.

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For me, I am not sure how this will look.

No, I am not going to be shutting anything down or ceasing to involve myself in things. Rather, I am going to be re-igniting old fires and starting a few new ones.

Some will be fun, others will be serious. They will show up in my day-to-day life, my work, and even here on this blog. I already have a few ideas–and I’m giddy with excitement to get started on them and share them with you!

So any how this is what I plan to do. I’m not sure how I’m going to do it, but I know change is on the way.

Or maybe not so much change but growth…

{ xLaurenB }