Growth

Recently I posted a piece entitled “Change“. In it  I shared some things that have been on my heart/mind over the past few months. I hinted at the change that I felt was coming; but left out details because I was still awaiting some direction.

Now I want to talk about growth.

We are ever-changing beings, and with that change comes growth. I am someone who loves to learn. If I could be a perpetual student (and not lose my mind) I would.

Learning is a hobby for me. It’s how I relax, it’s how I reflect, it’s how acquaint with myself and the world around me.

Ultimately, I think this is because I crave growth; I have never been content to stay the same. I want to move, adapt, evolve.

But lately I’ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed.

Part of it is all the doctors and decisions I need to make regarding my health. Another part, I think, is because my passions pull me in so many different directions.

I am passionate about mental health and body positivity and healthy at every size. But I am also passionate about makeup. And social media. And the environment. And ethical eating and shopping. And spirituality. And social justice. And Collin Ferrell’s eyebrows (yes, I had to add that).

For so long I squeezed myself into a single mould. I was the girl who wrote on eating disorder recovery because I had an eating disorder. But I am not a single-dimension person. None of us are.

We are all multi-dimensional beings.

We are constantly changing, adapting, growing. And we need to be open to this and allow ourselves freedom to evolve.

I think I’ve been afraid of evolving. Afraid people wouldn’t like it or accept it. Afraid I’d be misunderstood. I’ve created a comfortable uniform with a comfortable following, and I feared any change could lead to my demise. Because ultimately, I want to write because I want to leave a mark, I want to make some noise!

But if a post gets published and no one ever reads it, does it make a sound?

So I stayed in my box where it was comfortable. And when I got restless, I went silent.

Now I think it’s time to begin emerging from that box.

I am still not 100% sure what this is all going to look like. But I think it will begin with a slow merging of things. Libero Network will remain the same and  I will continue writing and advocating for it’s message. But things will be changing here, on my blog because I don’t want to divide myself anymore. I want to create a place where all of me shows up: the makeup lover, the social media enthusiast, the environmentalist, and, yes, also the mental health and self-love warrior.

Because all of these things are me.

Five and a half years ago when I made my online introduction I was the girl recovering from an eating disorder and self-hatred. But I have grown since then. I am so much more than that now.

And I’m ready to start sharing that.

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Note:

I haven’t offered any specifics as to what may be coming around the corner (and over the mountain) in regards to my change and growth. However, I do have some ideas, and I’m sure there are more to be discovered. But here are a few: 

  1. a merging of my Intuitive Eating blog with this main website (and a complete website redesign).
  2. a re-emerging of my YouTube Channel, with new videos that cover all the dimensions of who I am.
  3. reviews of books I’ve read, products I’ve tried, and possibly a documentary-review series (psych!)
  4. some social media-related content such as tips, advice, and [possibly] training material.
  5. what do you want to see?

 

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I’m the Founder and Editor-in-Chief of Libero Magazine and creator of #StopFitspiration. I believe in God, wearing eyeliner, and eating dessert. I was born in Canada, grew up in Africa, and now call Vancouver, BC home. I am also a makeup artist and a YouTuber. My greatest passions are writing, speaking, and advocating mental health. In my spare time, I enjoy running, playing Super Nintendo, and spending time with my giant furbaby Zoey. On YouTube I talk about makeup; on Libero I talk about body positivity and mental health; and on my blog I talk about life, beauty, spirituality, and dessert.

3 thoughts on “Growth

  1. Wow. Just, wow.

    I feel like everything you said in this post is me, and exactly the point that I hit earlier this year, and am still working through now. Except my fascination is with Peter Gallagher’s eyebrows instead of Colin’s ;).

    But otherwise, this is incredible. I think for people like us it can be hard to figure out how to be in so many directions at once. I know for me, I tried for so long to compartmentalize myself into different sections, but it became so difficult. I needed to be myself as a whole, not as parts, and as soon as I allowed myself to do that, the outcome has been INCREDIBLE.

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    1. Tabitha, thank you so much for your comment! It’s good to know I’m not alone. “I tried for so long to compartmentalize myself into different sections, but it became so difficult. I needed to be myself as a whole.” < YES! That's exactly how I've felt. I'm definitely excited to pursue myself as a whole from now on! xLaurenB

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