Growth

Recently I posted a piece entitled “Change“. In it  I shared some things that have been on my heart/mind over the past few months. I hinted at the change that I felt was coming; but left out details because I was still awaiting some direction.

Now I want to talk about growth.

We are ever-changing beings, and with that change comes growth. I am someone who loves to learn. If I could be a perpetual student (and not lose my mind) I would.

Learning is a hobby for me. It’s how I relax, it’s how I reflect, it’s how acquaint with myself and the world around me.

Ultimately, I think this is because I crave growth; I have never been content to stay the same. I want to move, adapt, evolve.

But lately I’ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed.

Part of it is all the doctors and decisions I need to make regarding my health. Another part, I think, is because my passions pull me in so many different directions.

I am passionate about mental health and body positivity and healthy at every size. But I am also passionate about makeup. And social media. And the environment. And ethical eating and shopping. And spirituality. And social justice. And Collin Ferrell’s eyebrows (yes, I had to add that).

For so long I squeezed myself into a single mould. I was the girl who wrote on eating disorder recovery because I had an eating disorder. But I am not a single-dimension person. None of us are.

We are all multi-dimensional beings.

We are constantly changing, adapting, growing. And we need to be open to this and allow ourselves freedom to evolve.

I think I’ve been afraid of evolving. Afraid people wouldn’t like it or accept it. Afraid I’d be misunderstood. I’ve created a comfortable uniform with a comfortable following, and I feared any change could lead to my demise. Because ultimately, I want to write because I want to leave a mark, I want to make some noise!

But if a post gets published and no one ever reads it, does it make a sound?

So I stayed in my box where it was comfortable. And when I got restless, I went silent.

Now I think it’s time to begin emerging from that box.

I am still not 100% sure what this is all going to look like. But I think it will begin with a slow merging of things. Libero Network will remain the same and  I will continue writing and advocating for it’s message. But things will be changing here, on my blog because I don’t want to divide myself anymore. I want to create a place where all of me shows up: the makeup lover, the social media enthusiast, the environmentalist, and, yes, also the mental health and self-love warrior.

Because all of these things are me.

Five and a half years ago when I made my online introduction I was the girl recovering from an eating disorder and self-hatred. But I have grown since then. I am so much more than that now.

And I’m ready to start sharing that.

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Note:

I haven’t offered any specifics as to what may be coming around the corner (and over the mountain) in regards to my change and growth. However, I do have some ideas, and I’m sure there are more to be discovered. But here are a few: 

1. a merging of my Intuitive Eating blog with this main website (and a complete website redesign).
2. a re-emerging of my YouTube Channel, with new videos that cover all the dimensions of who I am.
3. reviews of books I’ve read, products I’ve tried, and possibly a documentary-review series (psych!)
4. some social media-related content such as tips, advice, and [possibly] training material.
5. what do you want to see?